Author R.A. Gasparac

Here I am again, its my day off from my day job and I am struggling to find motivation. The urge to procrastinate looms over me. I’m on my second movie of the day while I am cleaning and doing laundry. The first was ‘Tremors’, and the second that I am currently on, is ‘Julie and Julia.’)

I’ve also decided to be cruel to myself and not play my favorite video game until my daily writing is done. This is the same tactic I used to write my first full length Novel. The bait at that time was Skyrim, and now that I have plunged deeper down the rabbit hole, Elder Scrolls Online (AKA Online Skyrim) is my current drug of choice.

Focusing on my writing seems to be a roller coaster. One moment its all I can think about doing, the urge almost overwhelming… Then I sit down and nothing comes out. It’s like my inner writer is constipated, and I can’t get it out. The urge and the need is there, but my brain is on vacation.

I don’t understand why something that makes me so happy can plunge me into sadness. No, I know why. Remember those days when all you have to do is sit at type and suddenly an hour has passed with a few thousand words as the only evidence of what just happened. The good writing days. That’s what we are hopeful for every time we sit down. We start the ritual hopeful, but only rarely does it happen. Yet, we still sit and try consistently because we want to catch that feeling.

I’m hoping to catch it again soon.